Alright, this has been a long time coming. Let me preface this by saying if you're not in for a world of hurt, a lot of reflecting on a lot of drama that probably belongs in the past, and if you don't have the patience for long readers, please, just do you and me both a favor and don't read. That said, I think you should, if you care(d) about me, Red, our overlapping circles of friends and like many of us are still grappling with things. Sometimes I think she deserved better than us and this is my attempt to be better for her, starting from the beginning. I'll start by talking about my angle in all of this, what brought me to this point and t